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Name: Michael
Country: United States
State: Wisconsin
Birthday: 10/20/1981
Gender: Male
Interests: Music, friends, writing, reading, martial arts, biking
Expertise: I'd like to think I'm amazing at rock-paper-scissors...I can impersonate dang near anyone to a t so i guess that makes me observant...I'm contemplative...I believe heavily in helping others as the best way to help yourself...I can talk for hours and hours about music, play for hours and hours, sing for hours and hours, and never get tired; love will do that to you :)
In general, I feel I'm an expert on being human...both the messed up side as well as the times where, occasionally, something really lovely, beautiful, and true comes out of us...I'm getting better at the latter but I have a long way to go
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Member Since:
9/15/2004
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| I understand why draw bridges and moats exist now...
and I want to build one around me.
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| A lot going on...as always...and, as always, much going on in my head and heart.
I am realizing that I spend way too much time in my head and heart though. I've been trying to be a lot more "ground level" in my view of the world and, above all, in how I actually interact with the world around me.
I've been dancing on Tuesday nights...and I've been working out like crazy. Both feel good and have been more theraupeutic than therapy.
Regarding my deep intuition being both a blessing and a curse, this weekend I went on a men's retreat with my church. For most guys, it's difficult to reflect, get inside of themselves, and then articulate that. All of that, for me, is an average day in the life of Michael Schuttke. For me, to stretch myself, I need to get OUTSIDE of myself; my head, my heart and actually move...touch...create.
Hence me dancing...hence me doing Cross-Fit workouts...hence me trying to organize a service project for church...perhaps, I am realizing, that I stretch myself more by NOT REFLECTING so much on things that I have no control over and doing everything I can to focus on what I do have control over.
It is vital that ideas become action...((a reflection from "and then the Word became flesh and dwelt among us..." (John 1: 14-18))...Even God gets this...he sends Jesus to earth; the incarnation.
I guess me doing what I am doing of late is me trying to "take on flesh" in my own, less divine/Messianic way.
...although I clearly do have a messianic complex I am realizing...but, alas, that is another blog for another day...
Unless I decide it better to go run, lift weights, dance with 30 different women, or other things that "really" stretch me. | | |
| All I have is this space between
Gravity and time, pulling me forward
Into those eyes, that skin, that prodigal and golden soul
You are stuck in a moment, frozen in rewind
Stateless…we’re spinning around
We’re weightless
I believe love will come around
A higher ground
Blurred from the inside, you shut one eye
Yet you can still see me falling, falling under your tide
You see the truth behind my lies
You see me holding it all in, the words I’m grasping for
Turn me inside
Inside out
Stateless…we’re underground
We’re fateless…don’t know if you’ll come around
I believe love will come around
A higher ground
Hold you lightly
Hold you steady
Hold you closer
Are we ready?
Close your eyes
Enter gently
We’re children of gypsies
Different lands, different tribes
We’ve both climbed from the underground
We’re both searching, seeking a solid ground
Stateless…This sound inside
We’ll take this (all we have to give)
You’re a light that shines, in spite of the dark
Graves from the past, breaking open, a new start
You see the ghosts in the sunlight
You’re an angel in the moonlight
Burning me
Stateless….pulling me under
Weightless
Hold you lightly
Hold you steady
Hold you closer
Are we ready?
Close your eyes
Enter gently
Bring your weight on, down on me
Be the heavy hand, the mortal sand
Be the weight, heart, get down on me
Stateless
Weightless
You let me inside and in there so much more ground
To be found, let me in, inside your sound
Stateless (mmmmmmmmmmhmmmmm)
Weightless
Hold you lightly, not holding down
Stateless…won’t you come around
Weightless…let’s fall, deeper in
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| I feel really lonely of late...just an overall void of people and connection in my life.
I know this is not healthy...but I can't seem to keep people around.
I want constancy. I know that nothing here is constant but...I feel like all others I know have some measure of relational stability in their life; be it a spouse, family, etc. For me, it all feels on constantly shifting sand and this is something that I just do not like.
It's getting to be more of a sigh though in terms of how I deal with it...although I still have that turn into tears every now and then. | | |
| I just wish you could give me an answer
Let the fire of love light up the night
Let the dark shadows slide, block out all light
I just want an answer
Lying awake at night, not sure if this love will grow
Like flowers or like cancer
Only time
Only time can tell where this will go
Some days I wish you were a dancer
Maybe the pumpkin stagecoach takes you away
Maybe the silver slipper will be in my hands at midnight
Some days I feel like we dance
Red flamed top has turned, burned seven colored marks
Like perfect art or falling in
Only time
Only time can reveal all we are under our skin
So won't you please just let love in
I've been standing on moonlight waiting for dawn to break
So won't you please burn tonight
Scatter the ashes of our love, cast them into the sea tonight
We're going to burn (x3)
An endless burn this flame yearns tonight
I just wish you could cut the millstone loose
Part of you is in the beauty of the moment now
Part of you is staring into yesterday's eyes, somehow
I just want you running free somehow
Like a child in daylight summer rain
I just want to see you smile, watch you radiate light
Only time
Only time can reveal when you'll be free
Some days I see you as Moses
Off the mountain you come and your face is forever golden
Off through the desert nights, I see you telling your Pharoah demons
To set you free, no more shame in this love tonight
Tonight, I just want love to be our higher law
Lying awake in my own desert tonight
Promised land or an oasis
Only time
Only time can tell what this love will show
So won't you please just let love in
I've been standing on moonlight waiting for dawn to break
So won't you please burn tonight
Scatter the ashes of our love, cast them into the sea tonight
We're going to burn (x3)
An endless burn this flame yearns tonight
(x2 chorus)
There is hope for us
I wanna take you in breathe you in for forever
There is hope for us
Give you the space, fall in further together
There is hope for us
Up from yesterday's ashes, like a phoneix, opened eyes
Only time, only time, only time...I can give you time
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